THE END

Hey Guy this shall be my last and final post , althought no one really read this blog le , just feel like writing now,i felt really sad and lost now, as i just truly break up with her or should i say she dun wan continue this relationship le , was really thinking about the past for like one two hour on the bed , really feel so heartache ,this time is not like last time whr we say but will return in the end ,was quite assure it final from wad her reply.Firstly i really dunno why she changed and fade so fast , i gib her all i could , i treat her the best i can, although i do wrong sometime but guess a person fade mean fade le bua haha,last time i still can gib her surprise bring her feeling back like making breakfast for her do some stuff or art for her but my life is really busy now final project going on , cant really do all those stuff le.was really hoping she will wait i still remember , we talk about engaging just last week ago haha and now everything just turn 720 degree,life is really full of surprises i guess.was thinking of the time we go out holding hand and she is huggin me alway like i a big pillow , kissing her gibing her present and seeing her smilely face ,those time , i really put her as my main focus in life try ways and ways just to get her happy ,even when she make me angry ,it will cooldown soon, when i think she is sad i couldnt bear to hurt her ,just cant bear to hurt this silly fish ....Becuz of her i really study hard and plan my career out well actually all this is only for one purpose and is to create a happy family wif her ASAP, she really let me become another self ,from a lazy bum who just wanted to play become a person who study late night and work weekend even most of my friend will surprise , of cuz it not becuz she want me to or ask me to , it just that i want gib her the best ,the life she can enjoy ,a man she can depend .Have to say i really love this girl alot ,too much that i forget about myself .now everything end and it like one yr nine month le haha seriously getting2 yr ,never never did i think that we will come to an end ,i thought we were as stable as steel already but i cannot blame her ,now i think back i relisaed i am too rush , seriously starting to get teary now when i write till here ,there alot of thing i want to say ,but think i ending here le bua . shall say i love u one last time although i know she wont come this blog anymore . I love u jessica chiam shuhui ,rather den hating u ,i still love u.